Day 3: Thoughts
Sorry for no picture today didn’t have time to search one up or take one today. So today started out normal, i went to school, nothing really important really happened at all. I felt kind of isolated today though, throughout the day i found myself by myself a lot >_>. Well i went home as usual and i didn something wierd at the 59th street station. I missed a train on purpose not because i wanted to go home with people but because i wanted to see someone…. ANYWAY got home nothing much happened for the first about hour or 2 then something set me off. I don’t feel ready to post it up here yet… but eventually i will. It made me realize how much of an idiot i was for thinking that it would happen. SO many emotions just stirred in my mind and i didn’t know what to do. I was in a pretty bad state and cried (gosh i’ve been crying so much lately…) I was going to cut, i was going to take the knife i used before and go into the shower and just numb my pain. But then my friend Victoria started talking to me. She kind of helped me calm down and made me more stable. I lost the will to cut and just went into the shower and cried my eyes out. Let the thoughts overflow. Atleast now i feel significantly better than before except that my eyes burn from crying. Hopefully tomorrows better.
