now i don’t remember what i did on certain days.
365~
This is my Project 365, a journal for me for everyday of the year. Read if you want to and indulge in my iife. =3
This is my Project 365, a journal for me for everyday of the year. Read if you want to and indulge in my iife. =3
now i don’t remember what i did on certain days.
those last few posts were saved up from a week ago, i was planning to put pictures on them but didn’t get the time so yea might as well post them. I’ve gotton lazy and i’ve pretty much forgotton what happened on each day so i’m jsut going to start again today.
Day 9:
So first day of school of the week and boy did it start shitty. Woke up late so i was rushing out the door all disconcerted. Then when i was about to get onto the Q11 bus my metrocard wouldn’t work. The bus driver was nice enough to let me through but once i got to the train station the fucker wouldn let me go through. I had no money to buy a new metrocard either..so i had to call my dad to drive to the station to buy me a metrocard. Then when i got to school my stomach started aching and was like dead through the first 3 classes of my day…. Yea, nothing much happened i guess. Went home alone again. Atleast i got Mochi when i got home.
Day 11:
I’m such a mess. I’m just a mix of emotions that i just can’t explain. I want to make them go away. Today i stayed afterschool again to help my friend Victoria out on her SING audition. Maybe i shouldn’t have stayed, it just brewed my feelings up more. I didn’t help much either. Lol, i don’t know whats wrong with me. I keep telling myself be happy be HAPPY. I need to force it, to a point noone will notice. Maybe then happiness will come a little easier?
Day 10:
Went to school. Nothing really happened i guess? Stayed afterschool to support my friends Manfred and Alice in their auditions for SING. Didn’t want to try out this year because i didn’t really feel like it. Maybe next year. We stayed pretty late. Got home later than usual. When i got home my parents started bitching at me at my grades, and maybe they noticed a was a little down recently? I don’t know but they started asking some questions but all i wanted them to do was leave me the fuck alone. I yelled at them to leave me alone. Lol i’m such a bad son.
Day 8: Prep school
So today i had to go to prep for SAT’s so i was in flushing until about 3. After prep i ate lunch and spent a little time hanging out with my friend lotus, who goes to prep with me. I had fun i guess lol. Went home and just relaxed for the rest of the day. Watched city hunter which is awesome lol and ended my day downloading the OST. All in all it was a pretty good day. Oh and here’s my cat Mocha =D isn’t he adorable.
Day 7: Bad thoughts
Today started out normal i guess. Woke up with my parents out of the house and finished my HW and made breakfast. Then, i don’t know, the thoughts just started flooding in and i couldn’t control myself very well. I was all moody towards my parents and i told them to get the fuck out of my life. I just wanted to be alone. Haha, i’m such a bad son…. I just want to get out.
Day 6: It’s Ok
Today i said It’s ok or i’m fine or something like that so many times. People kept telling me how i was being quiet and asked me why while going home. I just want them to go away. If i wanted to tell you i’d have already said it. I just need time, time to get over it. Time to get myself to stop looking. I keep finding myself looking and it hurts. It hurts to see the reality. I just need time to forget it.
Day 5: Failure
yes this is what i do instead of doing homeowrk >_>(look at the calculator screen lol). Procrastination ftw. Nothing very important happened today. It was pretty boring concidering that half my teachers were absent today. I stayed after school for the key club elections. Congratulations to Amanda Tam for getting elected President and Jessica Chan for getting elected Vice President. Afterwards i just went home by myself again. Got home and parents were being bitchy about my grades so i tried my best to ignore them. I tried to do my homework but kept getting distracted by things and thoughts. Lol i’m such a failure -__- .
